So, I'm feeling a lot better today. After my little breakdown sunday night, I got a little more focused about what I needed to do to get myself out of this slump. I was still a big, emotional mess yesterday, don't get me wrong. I was in one of those places where anyone asking me how I was or if I was okay sent me teetering on the verge of tears. Just what you want at work!
However, in spite of this, I was productive. Very productive. I got the several lingering practical tasks off of my list of things to do, of which I'd finally made a new version. I did them all in quick succession in one of our phone rooms here at work, and bam, 10 minutes later I was done. I also made an appointment for Monday with my old therapist. It was the earliest appointment she had, but I figure it will be good to give myself a week to recalibrate on my own and see where I stand. I get three sessions free through my work's employee assistance program, so I may as well take advantage.
Last night R came over and I had cooked us dinner. Chicken sauteed with garlic and other seasonings plus broccoli, green beans, red peppers and zucchini, all over jasmine rice. It was so good to have a real meal, cooked by me, and I have leftovers for tonight. Score! R and I watched Monday Night Football and just hung out, and it was nice.
After he left, I played a little with my online dating site because really, in spite of what I say, I never quite give up. I've encountered more than a couple oversexed jerks lately, but I guess that's bound to happen sometimes. I talked to a couple of nice enough guys, but nothing super magical, and I logged off eventually. I do admit I stayed up too late last night, but again, that's also bound to happen on occasion. Overall I've been doing a little better getting to bed earlier.
Tonight I'm going to check out a couple of gyms. I need that physical outlet, but I also need to find one that's affordable, preferably without locking me into some long contract. I know, I know, but a girl can dream. We'll see. R also invited me over for a movie night, but that depends on how efficient I am with my other must-do tasks!
Anyway, just wanted to check in. Yesterday's post was pretty gloom and doom, and while everything is not perfect, things do feel better today.
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