Anything Could Happen

I stole the title of my post from a song I'm currently hooked on, which is Ellie Goulding's "Anything Could Happen".  It's happy, light and hopeful, and that seems like a good way to close out 2012 and open the door to 2013.

2012 has been a very interesting year for me.  If you'd asked me on December 31, 2011 if I thought that I'd still be single one year later, I would probably have laughed at you.  Me?  Single for over a year and a half?  No way.  But here I am, and the world still turns, and I'm still moving forward. 

I was a relationship person for my entire adult life.  I jumped from the end of one into the beginning of another, never allowing myself anytime to breathe or grow individually.  I was in love with the idea of being in love, and dependent on it in many ways.  I needed that connection and companionship and title to feel complete.

There is something amazing about being happy on your own.  Something liberating.  Empowering.  Emboldening.  Something that dances inside and makes you feel like a true superstar.  I am responsible for my own happiness.  I am not reliant on anyone else to make me feel good about myself. 

Also?  If on 12/31/11 you'd asked me what I saw in my physical fitness future, I would have shrugged and said that hopefully I'd get into a routine of going to the gym a few times a week.  Meh.  Never in a million years did I expect to be this person who goes to the gym 5-6 times a week on my own, plus meets with a personal trainer twice a week.  A person who finds joy in sore muscles because it means I'm doing something right, a person who works to up the intensity on the machines as I'm able, who pushes harder and pedals faster and focuses on my breathing and my form and my water intake to better equip my body for the challenges I throw at it. 

People compliment my legs.  How my butt looks in my jeans, LOL.  My arms.  My overall fitness.  I can stand in front of a mirror in my bra and underwear and not see just a pile of flaws.  Now I see improvement.  Little muscles.  Opportunity for more.  I can imagine having legit abs, tight legs, toned arms.  I can put on a pair of jeans that I couldn't have even looked at a year ago and know that I look awesome.  I can put on a pair of jeans that I had to wear by default last year and know that they basically look ridiculous on me now.  I have earned that.

This year has brought big changes for me, but the subtle kind.  No marriages, divorces, breakups, moves, job changes.  Just the small waves that trickle into every corner of my world, making it better to live in. 

Cheers to 2012, the year of a beginning of positive changes.  I look forward to 2013 with great anticipation, and I know it will be a year of continued growth, goals and experiences.  I <3 my life.
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