You know what's really, really liberating? To know that no matter what anyone else thinks, no matter what anyone else wants me to do, thinks I should do, I will ultimately do exactly what I want, and no one can change that.
I know it is strange to revel so much in this independence, but I guess that for so long I felt like I was under the thumb of my ex, mostly by my own fault. I let a fear of conflict or additional stress keep me from doing everything I wanted to do, and I felt so repressed..so held back...so trapped. So now that I'm free of that burden, I think it just really hits me each time something comes up where the people in my life question my judgment, or tell me how to handle something.
Sure, I value the opinions of my friends and family. Yes, I take everything under advisement and consideration. But I love, love, love that in the end, I will do exactly what I want to do, even if it is the dead opposite of what everyone wants. This is my life, and these are my mistakes to make, my successes to relish. I love owning it all, knowing that no matter what happens, I did what I wanted, without undue influence from anyone else.
Liberating, indeed.
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